13 November 2019

My Isaac Part 13 Hannah's Heart

  As often happens, God used one of my own songs, based on his word, to speak to me during this time. Not the specific circumstances, but the message... "Hannah’s heart had learned to trust and pray."

 "What a difference it makes when we just put our trust in the Lord, and realize, as Hannah did, that there is none holy as the Lord: for there is none beside thee: neither is there any rock like our God!" 

1 Samuel 1:1 –1 Samuel 2:21 (please read the account in your Bible)

Jeremiah 17:7,8 Blessed is the man that trusteth in the Lord, and whose hope the Lord is. For he shall be as a tree planted by the waters, and that spreadeth out her roots by the river, and shall not see when heat cometh, but her leaf shall be green; and shall not be careful in the year of drought, neither shall cease from yielding fruit.

My Isaac, Our Foster Adoption Story

From my blog (recording added):

May 16, 2009 Hannah's Heart

Once again, I'm reminded that God’s plan, God’s way and God’s timing are always perfect.

(©Deborah Bolack 2008, Recorded by Terry Neufeld)

Excerpt from my book:

Hannah’s heart was grieved, as she prayed, and she wept sore.
Though in bitterness of soul, she trusted in the Lord.
Hannah’s heart poured out, as she asked God for a son,
Vowing she would give him back until his days were done.

Hannah’s heart was strong in faith,

for through her sorrow and her pain,
The Lord had taught her of his grace,
and how blessings come to those who trust and pray.

Hannah’s heart was calmed, and her face no longer sad.

She had lain her burden down, and left it in God’s hands.
Hannah’s heart rejoiced when God answered her request.
Soon the child, Samuel, unto the Lord was lent.

Hannah’s heart was strong in faith,

for through her sorrow and her pain,
The Lord had taught her of his grace,
and how blessings come to those who trust and pray.
Hannah’s heart had learned to trust and pray.

   Hannah’s heart was broken. Though she longed to have a son, the Lord had shut up her womb. What made matters worse was the fact that Hannah’s husband had another wife who was able to bear children, and she took pleasure in Hannah’s heartbreak. It would have been easy for Hannah to become bitter and angry at God for allowing such circumstances, and for a while, it does seem that Hannah is wallowing in self pity. But eventually, she realizes that her attitude is also hurting her husband. She remembers who it is that is in control of all things, and though she is still in bitterness of soul, she takes her petition to the Lord and pours it all out to him. After giving her burden to the Lord, her countenance is no longer sad.
 What a difference it makes when we just put our trust in the Lord, and realize, as Hannah did, that there is none holy as the Lord: for there is none beside thee: neither is there any rock like our God! Once again, I’m reminded that God’s plan, God’s way and God’s timing are always perfect.

To be continued....Part 14

You can follow the series here:  Our Foster Adoption Story 

12 November 2019

My Isaac Part 12 Waiting

  The trial to determine Princess's future had begun in February. She'd been with us since June....8 months; a very long time in the life of a child. Visits were going well, and I felt that with support, reunification could be successful. We thought, finally a decision would be made! 

  Unfortunately, because of bad roads, an expert witness wasn't able to make it, so further trial dates had to be set in March and April.

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11 November 2019

My Isaac Part 11 Surprise Packages

 And just like that, we were back to being foster parents! We hadn't planned to take more kids, but it wasn't long before the phone began ringing again.  I'm so glad we said yes because these were two of the most rewarding experiences we had during our fostering years. The circumstances in each situation were completely different, but both had a happy ending, and we were blessed to have a small part in the lives of these children and their families. 

Isn't it amazing what the Lord can do when we put Isaac on the altar!? 

Philippians 2:14 For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure.

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10 November 2019

My Isaac Part 10 Not My Will, But Thine Lord, Again

  We'd been retired from fostering for just two months; my book had been printed, 24 of my songs had been recorded, we were helping with a building project at our church and preparing for a children's ministry to begin in the fall. The path ahead seemed pretty clear. Summer was just getting started when life took a most unexpected turn.

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9 November 2019

My Isaac Part 9 Stepping Stones Along My Journey

 It was time to celebrate! Not only were we now retired from fostering, but I was also about to turn 50. I had decided to give myself a gift. For several months I had been busy compiling things I had written over the years to put into a book. 
 The preceding posts are found in this book and as far as I was concerned my Isaac story had come to an end. Little did I know that several more chapters were to come.

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8 November 2019

My Isaac Part 8 He Will Make a Way

  During a spring revival, a preacher asked the question, “Why did they wait on the banks of the Jordan?” He was referring to the account in Joshua 3:1 where the children of Israel came to Jordan and lodged there three days before passing over. I’m not sure why they waited for three days, but the preacher made an interesting application with the story. He said that if you stand too long on the banks of what God wants you to do, you will never cross over because sin enters in. It’s not the size of the Jordan that’s important, it’s who you’re trusting. The Jordan will always be there, even if you close your eyes. God opened up the Red Sea, and he can get you over Jordan, but the water won’t part until you put your feet into the water.

Joshua 3:1,13 And Joshua rose early in the morning; and they removed from Shittim, and came to Jordan, he and all the children of Israel, and lodged there before they passed over. And it shall come to pass, as soon as the soles of the feet of the priests that bear the ark of the Lord, the Lord of all the earth, shall rest in the waters of Jordan, that the waters of Jordan shall be cut off from the waters that come down from above; and they shall stand upon an heap.

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7 November 2019

My Isaac Part 7 Establishing My Thoughts

  Not My will? Taking my hands off? I needed to stop focusing on circumstances and look to God's word... Commit thy works unto the Lord, and thy thoughts shall be establishedProverbs 16:3

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6 November 2019

My Isaac Part 6 Taking My Hands Off

  I shouldn't be, but I'm always amazed at how the preaching of God's word can speak so clearly to whatever situation I'm facing. I was still struggling with surrendering my will when God provided exactly what I needed to hear.
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5 November 2019

My Isaac Part 5 Lovest Thou Me More Than These?

  To provide some context for this post... At the time, our three boys were ages 11, 8 and 5, and we were fostering two sibling groups. The two sisters were about 6 and 3, and although their future was yet to be settled, it was looking like they would not be returning home, and would need a permanent foster or adoptive home. The others were a 5 year old boy and his baby sister, who was almost a year old. These two would soon be returning to their mom.

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4 November 2019

My Isaac Part 4 The Song

  During our church’s camp meeting in July 2007, an evangelist preached a message called, “What Is Isaac?” He talked about what must have gone through Abraham’s mind when God asked him to sacrifice his son, Isaac. He had to travel three days to reach Mount Moriah, and though we aren’t given any details, he had to have agonized about what he was about to do. He must have wondered why God would ask him to sacrifice the son he had promised him; his hope for the future. But there is no indication that Abraham ever questioned God or tried to bargain with him. The only way he could possibly have carried through with it was by putting his complete trust in the Lord.

The account is found in Genesis 22:1-13….get thee into the land of Moriah...And they came to the place which God had told him of, and Abraham built an altar there, and laid the wood in order, and bound Isaac his son, and laid him on the altar upon the wood.

 I'd recently spoken with someone who was struggling with an issue concerning one of his children. As I listened to the preacher's message, I couldn't help but think about that conversation, as well as the fact that there were some issues with my own grown children that I clearly needed to let go. It wasn't long before a song began to form. 

 You may wonder what this has to do with foster care or adoption. Well, at that time, nothing! But God has a way of using my own songs to speak to me.

Genesis 22: 1-13

3 November 2019

My Isaac Part 3 Not My Will

 Not My Will, But Thine, Lord...Words written on a scrap of paper...I've kept that scrap of paper in my Bible all these years, as a reminder of how God can work when we surrender our will to His....even though it may take a while to get there!

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2 November 2019

My Issac Part 2 Meant To Be

 Over the course of our 30 years of providing foster care, we had close to 300 children come through our home. Some stayed just a few hours, some stayed for several years. A few came to stay permanently....they were meant to be.

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1 November 2019

My Isaac Part 1 A Foster - Adoption Story

 With November being Adoption Month I thought it would be a good time to share a little of that aspect of our lives...

 Foster care has been a huge part of our lives and our adoption journey, with 5 of our children coming from the foster care system. Most of their stories were included in my book, Stepping Stones Along My Journey. When it was published, I thought that chapter had come to an end. Little did I know God had another plan. As this new chapter unfolded I shared bits and pieces of it on my personal  blog...the good, the bad and the ugly! I've taken some of these book excerpts and blog entries and created a series of posts. 

 Parts of our story may not be particularly encouraging to anyone hoping foster care is a quick path to adoption, but it does have a happy ending, and more importantly, it's a story of how God works in our lives, using his word and the preaching of his word to direct us...sometimes in the most unexpected ways!